It’s with a tremendously sad heart that I share my father passed away Saturday evening. For anyone who has followed my blog this past year, it’s been a roller coaster ride as my father was put into hospice a year ago on May 27, 2016 with stage 5 kidney failure. He improved only to have a heart attack in June. We all thought we were going to lose him then, but again, he pulled through! Now exactly one year later on May 27, 2017, we said goodbye.
We shared many stories over the last few days and the common theme was how stubborn of a man he was but also that he was absolutely the kindest and most tender hearted man most people knew! He, without a doubt, loved to farm, was a great friend and father, and would go out of his way for anyone! He taught me to be kind to others and generous with my time.
I am really, really sad today as I already miss my daily phone calls with him and the smile on his face and joy in his eyes when I went to visit him! I’ll miss his words of encouragement and his I love you’s. I am very grateful that he always put up a good fight (as I said before, he was stubborn) and I will forever cherish the extra year we were blessed with to build upon our special bond!
Dad…you will forever be in my heart! I know you are my guardian angel now and I know you likely have already found a tractor and a farm! Now go farm!
I Love you Dad!
Mother’s Day weekend!! My tradition is to plant flowers on Mother’s day weekend. Honestly, I transport flowers from one pot to another, but I still consider that planting (insert winky face). I just planted my flowers and even if you don’t plant flowers, I want to wish all the moms a happy, fun filled day spent doing something YOU love whether or not it includes children, family or friends. Do something that feeds your SOUL!
So, today I’m frustrated. Not because its Friday (of course not!) or because I still need to get a card for my mother for Mother’s Day, but because I’ve been doing the Whole30 diet with a couple of friends and I’m ticked off with my body’s reaction. First, I cannot eat eggs, beans, sweet potatoes or nuts which are staples in the diet! But second, my severe case of SIBO and leaky gut takes these foods and many other foods off the list! Ugh! Finally, the ultimate bummer is how my body is responding!
Three weeks in, I’m feeling more energized and sleeping better; however, I’ve noticed over the last three days, my clothes have gotten tighter (Yes, I said tighter not looser), my stomach has become bloated and my mood shifted from happy to irritated. What is going on? Isn’t eating cleaner supposed to bring fitter, leaner, healthier results? And to top it off, I ate turkey and squash for lunch and my stomach reacted with major bloating! WTH! My body isn’t cooperating and I’m ticked! UGH!! Double UGH UGH!!
Yes, I’m frustrated! I also realize I cannot heal my stomach overnight. I cannot wave a magic wand and make SIBO, Leaky Gut or Lyme’s disappear overnight. BUT, I can be grateful for where I am today. Somedays it takes a little (or BIG) push to get there, but we all can get there! So, even with being frustrated (greatly frustrated), I’m grateful I can afford to eat healthy foods. I’m grateful for my doctor who has turned this frustrating adventure into a livable journey. I’m grateful for my friends, who talked me off the ledge this morning when I was having a pity party! I’m grateful for my daughters who motivate me to push ahead with my head high despite the setbacks! I’m grateful for the people who will read this, who may also be struggling, and see the glimmer of sunlight for them too!
Yes, life is frustrating, but keep going! I’m proof you can see the rainbow after the storm!
Happy Mother’s Day!